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Schoharie County Supers, Board of Health Mend Fences at Joint Meeting

Written By The Mountain Eagle on 9/26/24 | 9/26/24

By Chris English

SCHOHARIE COUNTY — Relations between the Schoharie County Board of Supervisors and the county Board of Health— recently described as "toxic"-- appear to be on a firmer footing after a joint meeting of the two groups on Tuesday night, Sept. 24.

After the meeting, county Supervisor and Public Health Oversight Committee Chairman Earlin Rosa of Seward, Board of Health President Dr. Roy Korn, and County Health Department Director Dr. Nicole Blanchard all said they believed the gathering achieved its objectives.

"We hashed out the issues, and the fact we can move forward and reset the table is important," Rosa said.

"It was constructive," Korn stated. "We cleared the air on some issues and agreed to go forward more collaboratively."

The Tuesday night meeting was arranged by Rosa and Korn after a tense relationship had developed between the BOS and BOH over a period of time, with the peak of tenseness probably being the approval by the BOS of a motion introduced by Rosa at the July 19 meeting that asserted the Board of Health had an "aggressive and toxic position relative to the Schoharie County Board of Supervisors..." It directed that Blanchard stop attending BOH meetings for not less than 90 days or until a meeting like the one on Tuesday night had occurred.

Blanchard said after the meeting she felt it was constructive and was hopeful it would go a long way toward settling differences among the two boards.

"A better communication plan was established," she said, and added she will resume attending BOH meetings.

Tuesday night's meeting of more than two hours started with the BOH conducting its regular business and then proceeded into BOS and BOH members going back and forth in an attempt to hash out their differences. It got edgy and pointed at times but never devolved into a shouting match or got too heated.

Rosa started by explaining from his standpoint how the two groups had gotten to this point. Also attending the meeting were fellow Supervisors and Health Oversight Committee members Donald Airey of Blenheim and Earl VanWormer of Esperance, and BOS Chairman William Federice of Conesville.

Rosa said he had heard the BOH did not trust him and that "I've been holding Nicole back from giving you information." He added being told by BOS, BOH and Health Oversight Committee member Philip Skowfoe that Blanchard had resorted to listening through the door when the BOH went into executive session so she "could find out what was going on."

Blanchard Tuesday night denied ever listening at the door during an executive session. Skowfoe did not attend Tuesday night's meeting, but reached by telelphone on Wednesday said he had said only that he believed "someone" was listening at the door during an executive session, not necessarily Blanchard.

Tuesday night, Rosa went on to say that the event which put things "over the edge" and led to his July 19 motion was remarks from BOH member Dr. Stephen Strasser in draft unapproved minutes from a BOH meeting that read: "The BOS won the first battle, and he (Strasser) fears they are winning this battle; this referenced release of the previous director." The approved version of those minutes expanded on Strasser's comments and deleted reference to release of the previous director.

"That's a political statement, and we're trying not to be political," Rosa told Strasser at the Tuesday night meeting.

Korn and other BOH members have said the minutes in question never should have been seen by another public body until they were approved by the BOH. Tuesday night, Srasser added that Rosa had taken his comments as indicated in the minutes out of context.

"It had come out that we went over Nicole's head to try and get a person hired against her will," Strasser said. "We didn't do that, but that's what we were accused of. I was taken aback by that. We told Nicole that we liked and supported her and she seemed relieved to hear that. She said that was good. I am very frustrated my words were taken out of context. Action was taken from my words taken out of context."

Strasser asked Rosa why he hadn't spoken to Strasser directly to clarify his comments. Korn also questioned why the July 19 motion was passed without Rosa or other supervisors talking to the BOH directly about whatever differences might exist between the two groups.

Rosa repeated several times that his main motivation for the July 19 motion and other actions was simply to protect county employees, meaning Blanchard.

"We need to try to put this divide to bed and move on," Rosa said fairly early in the meeting. "I think that's the only way we all work."

It has been asserted that the BOH might be trying to exert undue influence over personnel issues in the health department, something BOH members denied.

"Tampering, let's use that word," Airey said during the Tuesday night meeting. "Influence perhaps. That was brought to us. It doesn't matter where it came from."

Korn and other BOH members repeated several times they have no wish to exercise veto power over hire and fire decisions but need to know some things about personnel in order to do their jobs, like qualifications of people being hired in the health department. There seemed to be general agreement by the end of the meeting that was appropriate.

"I want to be able to work with both groups but at times I feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place," Blanchard said at the meeting. "You don't always agree and there are different perspectives. I respect all of you."

Board of Health member Dr. Rebecca Eckel said at several points in the meeting that a majority of BOH members were not aware of the approved July 19 motion or that there were troubles between the two boards until a long time after that meeting.

One of the resolves that appeared to come out of the Tuesday night meeting was that the two boards should strive to communicate better with each other.

"It doesn't really matter who said or did what in the past," VanWormer said. "Let's just take a breath and have more communication."

Near the end of the meeting, Airey questioned whether it might be too much or a possible conflict for Skowfoe to be serving on all three groups, the BOS and BOH and Public Health Oversight Committee.

"Is it asking too much of that person?" Airey said. "It might be an untenable expectation."

In the Wednesday telephone conversation, Skowfoe said his main motivation in wearing all three hats is always making decisions in the best interest of county residents, no matter if it might be perceived as coming down on the side of one board or another. He added he had intended to attend Tuesday night's meeting but got caught up in other work and forgot.

"I don't feel it's a conflict," Skowfoe said. "I was off the committee for a year and then they put me back on. This was never an issue until I supported the BOH." He voted against Rosa's motion at the July 19 meeting.

After Tuesday night's meeting was adjourned, Rosa and Korn could be seen chatting with each other and then shaking hands.


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Schoharie County to Get Revamped Website Soon

By Chris English

SCHOHARIE COUNTY — Schoharie County Supervisors and others are looking forward to what they feel will be a more dynamic and user-friendly county website coming online in the next few months.

The enthusiasm comes after the county Board of Supervisors voted at its Friday, Sept. 20 meeting to move forward with an agreement with Michigan-based Revize Web services to revamp the website.

"Our website is a window into who we are and gives people direction on who we are," county Administrator Korsah Akumfi said after the meeting. "This (revamped website) will indicate our readiness for the 21st Century."

Under the agreement, the county will pay Revize $44,600 the first year and $6,900 in each of the next three years after that. If the county continues with the Michigan firm, the yearly payments will then increase roughly 3 to 5 percent after the fourth year, Akumfi noted.

During a presentation at the Aug. 16 BOS meeting, Thomas Jean of Revize said that once the supervisors agreed to move forward, one of the next steps would be for the firm to do a mock-up of what the new website would look like, have the BOS review it and make any changes they like. He estimated that once an agreement was reached, it would take about four or five months for the remade website to be up and running. Akumfi put that timeline at about six to eight months.

Jean said that among Revize's services could be updating the website four times a year with new technology, including security. The county would own the website and could host it or have it hosted by a third-party vendor, he added. County employees would have quick and ready access to the website to post meeting agendas and other information, Jean said.

"An updated website would have a very good way of reaching out to people. It will help bring us into the 21st Century," Supervisor Werner Hampel of Cobleskill said at the Aug. 29 Economic Development Committee meeting.

"I was impressed with their presentation, and it seemed like the cost for what they are offering is quite reasonable," added BOS member Donald Airey of Blenheim at that Aug. 29 meeting. "I think the website really does need updating and needs to be a lot more user friendly."

In other news from the Sept. 20 BOS meeting, Gretchen Becker was introduced as the county's new information technology director at a starting annual salary in the position of $89,000. She succeeds Scott Haberle, who retired.

“We were able to fill this position internally," Akumfi said.


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Sharon Springs / CV-S Defeats Franklin

FRANKLIN — Sharon Springs / Cherry Valley-Springfield defeated Franklin on the road last Thursday in an impressive 2-1 win. Kris Cade had two assists while Tyler Houk had two goals.

For Franklin, Jacob Kingsbury had the sole goal for Franklin.

Special thanks to Cyle Conley for the information.


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“Sharon Things - Local Happenings for Sharon Springs”

By Alexis Pencar

Hey Neighbors!

It is officially Fall and the weather is making sure we know it too! After some warmer temps last week we have shifted out of the dry spell and into the cooler and wet weather. Look out for 60s and cloudy with lows dipping into the 50s at night. Should be even more of a cool down next week too!

The Sharon Springs Harvest Festival was a huge success last weekend! It was so nice to see everyone out and enjoying the Village! The new sidewalks up Main Street were a hit with visitors!

The Cherry Valley Kite Festival is coming up on Sept. 28th from 10:00 - 5:00 PM. This annual event is hosted by The Teepee on Route 20 and is located on Campbell Road in Cherry Valley. Visit their Facebook page for more information.

The Sharon Springs Dance Festival is coming up on October 4th and 5th. This year’s festival features an exciting performance by Ephrat Asherie Dance and a full day of diverse dance workshops for all ages and skill levels. Please visit www.Klinkharthall.org/dance for more information.

Sharon Orchards is open for the Fall season! They are pressing apples 7 days a week and are making their famous apple cider donuts on the weekends! Visit them at 573 Chestnut St, Sharon Springs, NY 13459.

Wren’s Earth Refillery is now open for business Thursdays from 4:00 PM to 7:00 PM and Saturdays from 9:00 AM to 12:00 PM. The shop is located at 277 Stage Coach Road, Sharon Springs, NY. You can shop anytime at WrensEarth.com. 

Parsons Vegetable Farm has all your Fall needs AND The Outrageous Snack Snack is also now open Friday through Sundays from 10-4 PM serving up specialty handcrafted donuts and more! Located on Route 20 across from the Walmart DC. 

The Klinkhart Hall Concerts in the Park are over for now but check out all the upcoming events on their website at klinkharthall.org!

Sharon Springs Free Library News: 

It's "MVLS-GO" time! Every library in the Mohawk Valley Library System has its own Summer 2024 Trading Card that can be collected. Stop in to our library to check out our unique and limited-edition trading card for Sharon Springs. We challenge you to try to collect all 14 from every library! Check out the map of all the participating libraries by visiting mvls.info/trading-cards/

The Library is open Tuesday, Wednesday and Fridays from 3:00 - 8:00 PM, Mondays & Thursdays from 10:00 - 6:00 PM, Saturdays 10:00 -1:00 PM, and Sundays - Closed. 

For more Library information please contact (518) 284-3126.

The Sharon Springs Food Pantry is an excellent local resource for all! They are located in the United Methodist Church on Route 20, across from the school (511 US Route 20, Sharon’s Springs, NY 13459). They are always accepting donations! If you or someone you know is in need of the Pantry, the hours are Thursday 9:00 -10:30 AM and 5:00 - 6:30 PM. For more information please contact (518) 284-2687 or follow them on Facebook.

Worship Services

The Sharon Reformed Church (6858 State Route 10, Sharon Springs, NY 13459) offers weekly service at 10:30 am. Contact at (518) 234-2387 for more details.

The Sharon Springs United Methodist Church (511 State Route 20, Sharon Springs, NY, 13459) offers weekly service at 10:30 am. Contact at (518) 284-2200 for more details.

The St. Thomas The Apostle Catholic Church (24 Maple Avenue, Cherry Valley, NY 13320) offers weekly mass at 10:00 am. Reminder: confession is available 30 minutes before every mass. Contact at (607) 264-3779 for more details.

The Zion St. John’s Lutheran Church Seward (114 Mesick Ave, Cobleskill, NY 12043) offers weekly service on Sundays at 9:00 am. Contact at (518) 234-3222 for more details.

Cornerstone Baptist Church (7274 Route 10, Ames, NY 13317). Sunday Service is at 10:00 am. All are welcome. Contact (518) 673 3405 for more details.

Sharon Sr. Congregate Meal Site

Local residents are invited to enjoy good company and a noon-time meal year round (except holidays) at the Schoharie County OFA’s “Spa Ritz” Sr. Congregate Meal Site at the Firehouse at 137 Beechwood Rd. M-W-F. 8 oz of 1% milk is served with each meal. Orders for meals must be called into the OFA office at (518) 295-2001 before 2 p.m. for the following day. Effective January 1st the suggested donation for those 60 years old and older is $5.00 per meal. Under age 60? You’re welcome to participate for a fee of $7.50 per meal.

To share community news, upcoming events, business specials, adjusted hours, birthdays, anniversaries, or even an outstanding resident, please contact me directly at (772) 971-1410 or alexis.pencar@gmail.com. Have a great week! Thanks!


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More Events for Vets

By Alexis Pencar

SCHOHARIE COUNTY — This past September has been a busy one for the Schoharie County Veterans’ Service Agency! They are continuously working so hard to offer more each month for local Veterans. 

Some of the events and experiences range from camping and horseback riding to things like the Schoharie County Health and Safety Fair that was at the County Office Building yesterday, Thursday, September 26th. These are wonderful opportunities and resources for local Veterans to talk and find support if needed. 

This coming Saturday, September 28th from 10:00 AM to 4:00 PM is the Wildlife Festival at the Blenheim-Gilboa Visitors Center, this will be an educational and fun event for the whole family. The festival is located at 1378 NY-30, North Blenheim, NY. 

On the same day, Saturday, September 28th, at 1:00 PM is the Veterans Range Day at the Richmondville Fish and Game Club located at 811 Highview Rd, Richmondville. This is a popular  monthly event.

If you have questions, want to get involved, or just need to talk, please do not hesitate to reach out to Kris Hofeller, who runs the group, at (518) 295-8360, Cell: (518) 929-2832, or email Kristian.Hofeller@co.schoharie.ny.us. For any general questions, please contact The Veterans’ Service Agency Office. They are located at 284 Main Street 3rd Floor Schoharie, NY 12157 or call (518) 295-8360.


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Volunteer and Sponsor Appreciation Luncheon at Landis Sept. 29

ESPERANCE — We know that Landis is a strong and vibrant resource to the community because of its volunteers. Without you, we could not exist. The Landis Arboretum Board of Trustees want to recognize you for all that you do. We also want to meet people who may be interested in becoming members or volunteers! Family members are welcome, too.

We'll be there from noon to 2:00 PM on Sunday, September 29 in the Nicholas J. Juried Meeting House at the Landis Arboretum, 174 Lape Road, Esperance.

We would appreciate a RSVP so that we can plan appropriately for food and beverages. For more information or to register, contact us at info@landisarboretum.org, or call us at 518-875-6935.

Just bring yourselves - or add a spouse or family member. We will provide a delicious lunch of homemade soups, crusty breads, cheeses, and desserts. Wine, beer, and non-alcoholic beverages will also be available. If you have a plant or two that you'd like to pass along to someone's friendship garden, bring that too - and perhaps go home with a plant new to you as well! Come on out, enjoy a wonderful lunch, and gaze out over one of the most beautiful valleys in New York State.

Location: The Meeting House

Volunteers, family members, the "volunteer curious", and sponsors: free


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Kane Brothers Blues Band Rocks Pine Hill

By Robert Brune

PINE HILL — This northern Catskills homegrown group of musicians who’ve performed with music

legends have not forgotten how much fun it is to entertain the locals with their ferocious style of

blues. This past Friday evening the Kane Brothers Blues Band chugged along like a sturdy

locomotive engine at the Pine Hill Community Center (PHCC). One of the audience members

recalled seeing the Kane Brothers Blues Band when they started performing as a band in 1972

when Jonathan Kane (drums) and Josh Colow (vocals and guitar) were 15, Anthony Kane

(vocals and harmonica) was 17 and Ray Ploutz (bass) was 16 years old. The Kane brothers

lived in Boiceville and spent lots of time at their father’s place in Margaretville. Ray Ploutz grew

up in Roxbury, and now living in Florida, he comes up for occasional performances here in the

area. 

The Kane Brothers Blues Band toured together between 1972 – 1977. The young group

was able to find their way into Woodstock clubs performing with the help of fake ID’s, building a

following with their powerful and fiery passion for blues rock n’ roll. Jonathan Kane explains the

legacy of the group, “Touring the east coast, from Boston to NYC and everywhere in between,

and occasionally opening concerts for our heroes, including Muddy Waters, James Cotton,

Willie Dixon and others. We reformed in 2003 for a few years, and again in 2023”. The group

went in separate directions for a number of years, as Jonathan Kane broke into the industrial

rock scene at CBGB’s in NYC as an original member of the Swans during the formative era that

shifted rock music forever. Jonathan Kane went on to participate in groups totaling 40 record

albums, including his work with guitar innovator Rhys Chatham. Anthony Kane spent several

years continuing on the blues path with his legendary harmonica gift and singing with Muddy

Waters, Koko Taylor, Luther Tucker, Sam Lay, and many others. Josh Colow, with his blistering

guitar licks, has a string of dance hits in Europe but returned to Woodstock to perform with

greats such as The Band, Rick Danko, and David Torn. Rejoining the Kane Brothers Blues

Band, Ray Ploutz’s bass is a driving force creating the backbone rhyme of the group, once

again.

On this evening the PHCC was hopping with excitement through every song. During the

group’s rendition of Ray Charles ‘Mess Around’, Wendy Brackman and her husband Lou were

doing the giddy up in the back of the seating area, as about twenty others hopped and swung to

the infectious classics and originals pulsing from the stage. Jan Albert, who used to work for the

Village Voice, didn’t stop moving through both sets wiggling in her seat and waving her hands

and arms to the music. The joy that these local guys were able to share with the community

made for an unforgettable evening. Jonathan Kane continues with his musical endeavors, 

extremely busy with other bands including ‘Doom Dog’ with David Bowie’ss guitarist of 15 years,

Reeves Gabrels, who also is a member of superstar band The Cure. Everyone else has their

lives and commitments, but who knows, maybe if the stars line up we dust ourselves off again

sometime and play some more in the future”. Keep a look out and be sure to catch this

outstanding group’s performance the next time they come around.

Just that I have never seen so many people up on their feet and dancing at the PHCC! There was no passive listening that night. They were smoking! That lead guitarist -wow! That harmonica player! That drummer! I just discovered the Kane Brothers Band but as I left the show, I met a group of fans outside who knew and loved their bluesy tunes since the 1970s!” said Jan Albert, formerly of the Village Voice.


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ECOscape: New Works by GG Stankiewicz

The Sidney Memorial Public Library, 8 River Street, Sidney, will host an opening reception Oct. 5, from 1-3 p.m. for ECOscape, an exhibition featuring new works created by GG Stankiewicz inspired by the native plants and fungi living in the Delaware County landscape. These paintings and works on paper highlight the colors, shapes, textures and patterns of the local landscape emphasizing its’ transient nature because of light, weather, seasonal and land use changes.  GG is a multidisciplinary artist. She lives in Delaware County and her art studio is in Delhi, NY.

This event is free and open to the public Oct. 5 – Nov. 30, 2024. Viewing is during library open hours visit www.sidneylibrary.org. For further information: ggsartlab@gmail.com or IG:gg.stankiewicz.studio

This project is made possible with funds from the Delaware County Arts Grants, a regrant program of the New York State Council on the Arts with the support of the Office of the Governor and the New York State Legislature and administered in Delaware County by the Roxbury Arts Group. 



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THE CATSKILL GEOLOGISTS BY PROFESSORS ROBERT AND JOHANNA TITUS - A Convenient Truth, Part One

With an illustration by Karl Anshanslin

After losing the 2000 presidential election, former senator Al Gore set about the beginning of a major career change. He wrote a very influential book “An Inconvenient Truth.” In the book, and later in the movie, he documented the evidence for a warming worldwide climate. Within both of these you can find before-and-after illustrations of glaciers that have been melting away in recent decades. The story was pretty much the same wherever he looked; he found glaciers thawing all across the globe. He feared the effects of this upon the world’s ecologies. How many extinctions would follow this great melt You can certainly get the book from your local library, and we recommend that you look at the photos on pages 51-57. They show the before and after melting back of the glaciers in a number of locations. You have probably also seen similar illustrations elsewhere.

Well, the long and the short of this is that you would hardly imagine that we could do something similar in terms of illustrating another major warming event – the final melting of the Pleistocene glaciers, perhaps about 14,000 years ago. We are talking about the good global warming, the one that made the world far more habitable for our own species. Let’s call that a convenient truth: the one that made upstate New York habitable for humans. The two of us think that we can actually see this. And the other long and the short of it is that we think we can see this right here in our favorite part of the Catskills – the Blue Trail, just north of North Lake. Yep, that’s where we were last week. And you can see global warming right there; it will be the topic of this and next week’s column. We want to solve some of the puzzles we found last week. Go to the North Lake parking lot and head north on the Blue Trail. Take a look at last week’s photo and today’s first photo. We would like it if you hiked to the top of that arrow on the map.

                       A map of a river

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You have taken the Blue Trail up to a site called “Badman’s Cave.” That will be a lot easier if you bring along someone who has already been there. Right there are the upper reaches of a canyon that drops about 350 feet down to Mary’s Glen. Our blue arrow traces this canyon. See our second photo. That’s a vertical Badman’s Canyon wall on the right and the canyon floor to the left. But there is no stream here. What a curious feature this is. It is, indeed, a canyon but there is not a drop of water in it. That seems impossible, doesn’t it? How can there be a canyon without the stream that carved it? We saw this many years ago and guessed the answer right away. We turned around, looked to the east, and, in our mind’s eye, we gazed into the late ice age past. We saw a glacier abutting the Catskill Front right here. We were looking into the latest chapter of the last Ice Age and the climate was warming – fast. Vast volumes of meltwater were pouring out of the melting ice and torrents of this were roaring past us. That was downhill and off to the southwest. The noise was almost painful. This was not just a loud flow, but it was also a very erosive one. Those raging floodwaters were cutting into the bedrock. We stood there, transfixed, and watched all of this – these were the origins of that mysterious Badman’s Canyon.

But this is just the beginning of the story. Al Gore would have made this a “before” image. We need at least one “after” – don’t we? Let’s pick up on this next week.

Contact the authors at randjtitus@prodigy.net. Join their facebook page “The Catskill Geologist.” Read their blogs at “thecatskillgeologist.com.”



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Bruised Fruit: Hiding the Truth

By Max Oppen

Trust is fragile. Once broken, discarded, damaged, and disregarded, you lose a part of yourself—at least I have. When all you have left is your word, being trustworthy gives you a sense of self-worth and identity. Even when you're penniless or homeless, being honest feels better than being a destitute, homeless liar.

I've lied since I was very young. It's hard to admit. I guess we all lie at some point in our lives—those "innocent" white lies we tell others, like about Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, or the Tooth Fairy. For some, that's where lying ends. For others, it's a training ground—a way of life to build upon and practice. Looking someone in the eye and making things up on the spot without blinking takes practice.

I was eight years old when I caught my mother carrying bags of wrapped presents downstairs to put under the Christmas tree. That was when I knew Santa wasn't real. I didn't immediately think my parents had been lying to me forever, but I did feel let down. A piece of my childhood magic had been erased, and the innocence of my youth began to chip away. That must be how my family feels about me now—let down.

When trust is lost in a relationship, I'm not sure it can ever be fully rebuilt. It's like a mudslide in Northern California that covers a road and suffocates people in their cars. The mess may be cleaned up, the road rebuilt, and the slope reinforced, but the event is never forgotten. Maybe it's different with immediate family. Maybe it's not. I don't know yet.

I became good at lying. I grew into a good manipulator - so good that I didn't always know I was doing it. After a boot camp of distrust, being a functional addict is where I ended up. Everything fell to pieces after that due to the progressive nature of addiction. It's a real war staged inside your head. I was constantly battling myself, trying to stay ahead of my own bullshit. It became a weight I carried - an invisible boulder weighing me down as I attempted to navigate the life I had built for myself with others.

When I was kicked out of my mother's house, I had been living there rent-free and spending my money on drugs. This was during COVID-19. It's painful to think about all the damage I caused. These were my people, my tribe. These people were always there for me, no matter what. But "no matter what" now mattered. When Bob Marley sang, "You can't run away from yourself," he was spot on. No amount of drugs I consumed could ever undo the mudslide I caused. I used drugs to shake reality. I wanted no part of it. It's a terrible Catch-22. Make mistakes, lie, do drugs to forget, mess up, get arrested, lose jobs, lose loved ones, burn bridges, and do more drugs to try and erase all the feelings of inadequacy, regret, and sorrow. Drugs are good for killing the pain, if only for just a moment.

Sometimes, people see you for who you are. And what they see isn't pretty. Some people I know think I'm crazy for writing these columns. And that's ok. I must live in the light, not behind a closed blind, peeking at imaginary shadows. I must open the doors and windows and bathe in the cool air and sunshine. I need to acknowledge what a terrible person I was and hold myself accountable for all my bad choices, one day at a time. I am a good person who made some genuinely awful mistakes over and over again.

This summer, I didn't want to live anymore, and I nearly accomplished my goal. Ironically, coming that close to removing myself from this planet gave me more insight into who I was and who I had become than anything any therapist ever said to me. Now, on Sunday, September 22, as I write this, I want to live. I have 56 days clean today. The sun is shining, my door is open, and my blinds are up. It's a gorgeous day.

I'm about to join my community and cover the 12th Annual Cruisin' on the Mountaintop Car Show in Tannersville. It's just steps away from where I live. Instead of hiding behind a curtain in a dark room with a crack pipe in my hand, I'm going to be a part of something. I want to be a responsible human being and a productive member of this mountaintop I call home.

Some may whisper, "Hey, there goes that drug addict reporter," and that's fine. Go crazy. You need to have thick skin to be a reporter anyway. Plus, manual labor and staying clean have helped me heal. I feel my body getting stronger, and the honesty and tears help me heal emotionally. This column isn't just about helping others, though. Step 12 of Narcotics Anonymous says, "Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs." It asks you to apply these principles in every part of your life and to help others struggling with addiction. While I've only completed the first step "officially," which is admitting that I'm powerless over my addiction and that my life has become unmanageable, I know I can make a difference and help others.

It's not just in my head either. People pull me aside and say I'm brave for doing this. My editor and I get emails from people who have had people with an addiction in their lives or who have experienced what I've gone through, thanking us for sharing this message.

Being an addict and thinking you're only hurting yourself is a really selfish way of living. Through my drug use, I destroyed not only my life but others' lives, too. My addiction consumed me—nothing else mattered. But now, things are starting to matter. No matter what, I will not use drugs today. As the days pass, I feel more connected to myself. It's funny, even now I have to be a little selfish—I have to focus on myself because if I don't love myself, there's no way I can ever truly love anyone else or be loved by anyone. Building back trust is an uphill battle, and I want to be clear headed and present for the fight. 


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